Caylinn Darling

Jun 04

Anonymous said: so whats happening now with you and your bf?

well, I’m staying with him. He said that he was only thinking about cheating, bc the birth control i was on made me a complete beotch for the first month, then made me anxious and depressed. So after taking the anxiety meds, it made my depression even worse.

I’m trying to become happier now, and not be so beotchy. He says he still loves me, but I have to learn to trust him again. So I ended up deleting all the girls he had flirtations with from his phone, and blocked and deleted them from his facebook.

Pretty pathetic huh?

Jun 03

nightcurse:

Galaxy Quest appreciation post~

Jun 03

SO I am in the worst depressive state ever…

I know most of you won’t care, you’ll tell me I’m a pathetic Bella Swan type.

But I have been dating this guy, and I dropped everything for him; my friends, my job, my home, all of it, to be with him.

I love him, and he’s honestly made me a better person.

But I found out the other day, that for the entirety of our relationship, he’s been lying to me….I told him I didn’t want him talking to this one girl, who he has constant flirtations with. And when I went on the depo-provera shot, my bi-polar became increasingly worse, and I was always angry or sad, or just not fully there.

Now, I found out that he’s been using my laptop to message her on facebook, and tell her how beautiful she is, and always asking for pictures, and he used to tell me I was beautiful, all the time. Now I never hear it.

Four days ago, he asked her on a dinner date.

I found out, and attempted to overdose on Myla-Clonazapam with a wine cooler. Unfortunately it just made me incredibly drowsy, and I’ve still been having the effect two days later.

He came home, and I confronted him about it, and he told me he had done nothing wrong, because he hadn’t gone through with it.

I had even made myself pretty for him when he came home from work; a nice dress, make-up, hair done, the works. But when I found out Ifreaked out.I went a little over board.

When he told me he didn’t feel sympathy for my pain, or that he had done nothing wrong, I went and attempted suicide by cutting, which didnt work either.

He was planning on cheating on me, after telling me the only time he would cheat would be if I did first.

I don’t trust him, I don’t believe anything he says anymore.

I asked him if he loved me last night; he said yes. I asked him if he found me sexually attractive; he said yes. I asked if he wanted to see other people; he said no, but that I needed to think for myself if we were ever going to work.

But, he wanted me to be submissive; he wanted me to not only work an 8 hour job, but when I got home to be ready to do the dishes, and the laundry, and clean the house, while he sat on his ass and messaged this girl while pretending to play Grepolis.

He lied to me, everytime I asked who he was talking to on his phone, he’d say it was another friend, and that I was overreacting.

But I overreacted in trying to kill myself.

I did not overreact when I went through his facebook and blocked and deleted every girl he’s ever had flirtations with.He hasn’t even changed his facebook display picture once since we’ve been together, yet he’s had pictures of his ex and him as his profile picture.

I just need someone not to tell me to leave him, but to help me figure out a way to stop this crippling depression that’s given me an inability to eat for 3 days. Everytime I try, I throw up. I used to eat like a linebacker….not anymore.

I just want someone to hug me and tell me it’ll be okay. My mother says God is always with me, and that he’ll listen. But her God is not corporeal and cannot give me a hug and look me in the eyes and tell me everything will get better. He isn’t there to keep me from being lonely.

The doctor told me I should never be alone…I’m always alone though. Always.

May 15

Debating actually doing something with my blog

But I kinda wanna blog my life, but I don’t think anyone would care. My life is boring and I have no friends

May 07
loving-together-living-apart:

bridgemcgidge:

shercockandmycrotch:


everyone needs a waving snail on their blog

i feel that if I scroll past this and don’t reblog it the snail is going to look to the ground and cry

that comment
im sold
gotta do it now

…
I’ve just been emotionally blackmailed by a cartoon snail.


Actually that snail is the host body of the lich in the land of ooo from adventure time. He will eat your soul

loving-together-living-apart:

bridgemcgidge:

shercockandmycrotch:

everyone needs a waving snail on their blog

i feel that if I scroll past this and don’t reblog it the snail is going to look to the ground and cry

that comment

im sold

gotta do it now

I’ve just been emotionally blackmailed by a cartoon snail.

Actually that snail is the host body of the lich in the land of ooo from adventure time. He will eat your soul

Feb 16

bethegoodgirlyoualwayshadtobe:

thejollity:

"Let It Go" from Frozen according to Google Translate

AS IF FROZEN COVERS COULDN’T GET ANY BETTER

lost my shit at the chorus

Feb 16

flyingassassin:

teenwolf:

This is NOT happening…

So is Stiles suffering from an actual disease or is it all the Nogitsune?

Because it looks to me like Claudia was also possessed by a Nogitsune and died to protect her family.

And when did the Nogitsune enter Stiles? Because Derek thought the Fox Fire did it, but Stiles was possessed before that, because he told Barrow to go after Kira that night.

So maybe Claudia was Possessed and when she refused to let it control her she died and it passed on to the nearest human - Stiles. 

And years later Stiles opens up his mind for the darkness to save his father and the Nogitsune wakes up.

Feb 15

pink-hime:

when music continues to play after i closed the tab

image

Feb 12

growley:

betty-foo:

growley:

if you’re ever mean to me i’ll seduce your dad and get him to marry me then i’ll be your fucking stepmom and i’ll disable the internet every night at seven pm don’t fucking try me 

If you disable the Internet how will you use it

i dont need wifi when im riding your dads dick

Feb 12

severingsnapes:

sammys-luscious-locks:

inhalers:

being addicted to american tv shows is so annoying because you guys have so many stupid fucking holidays for everything that every other week im disappointed when I go to see if the next ep is up yet and its like nOPE it’s fucking ‘armadillo day’ or something in the states ffs

That’s funny cause in Texas armadillo day is a real thing

arE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS